I’m here. My internet is occasionally dropping out, but that’s not why I didn’t post a video this weekend. Frankly, I don’t just feel that motivated to post much at all. Sometimes, your life feels like it has meaning — a few projects you’re working on are taking off, the weather is particularly nice lately, and everything seems to be humming along, driven by some ethereal engine that you don’t particularly control, but that seems to be pushing you and your life forward.

And sometimes that engine stalls, and your life feels pretty aimless, and nothing much changes or seems like it’ll change in the future. This second feeling is the one I’m having lately. It’s unfortunate, but in my experience these things pass, and the first feeling, the one with an engine behind it, will eventually return. I usually just have to wait it out.

Please don’t worry or anything — this past Friday night I was feeling a little bummed, and I tweeted exactly that, and I saw a friend on Saturday who expressed concern about it. But I told him not to worry, and I made a mental note to try and keep that stuff off the Internet. On the Internet, no one knows what you really mean, and people may worry that you’re in real trouble when you casually mention that a night didn’t really go your way. But in reality, it’s just life. Everyone deals with it.

I’m breaking that rule already by saying that I don’t really feel inclined to post lately, but don’t worry about it. Because every time things go down, there is a resulting up that comes along eventually. I’ll just sit here, and quietly wait for exactly that to happen.